Well let's see...I was at work all day on friday from 10-8 at H R block... Differnt office this year. Not too happy. District Mgr said if i went there i'd get more hrs. WRONG! My Office Leader is giving all the hrs to the other CSP,that's what were called CSP (customer service professionals). Like Next week i have 19 hrs while the other lady has 31 hrs. I talked to my OL about my hours a few times but haven't really seen much oof an improvement. then i talked to her today about this and asked if she could take some of the other csp's hrs and give them to me to make it a lil more even b/w us and she said she couldn't take hrs from her to give to me b/c it wouldnt be fair to her b/c she's a top-notch csp and she deserves those hrs. She's never worked with her so how does she know that. I'm a top-notch csp too. This is my 3rd year w/block and i'm good at my job. I've always gotten high priase. I'm a hard worker and she saw that today, she told me so. But all of a sudden she deems this other lady gets all the hrs. We had a store meeting tonight and all she could talk about was how she wanted to make sure everyone was treated fair and equal. um hello, not treating me that way. This is her first year in that office too so i just don't understand. I've already been insulted by 1 of the tax pros, and then half the other people act like i dont know what i'm doing yet i've been there 3 years. SO FRUSTRATED! So, that night after work when i got home, i wrote my District Manger an email explaining the situation. I told her i did not want to step on anyone's toes but that i was a lil upset about this whole mess. I mean she is the one who told me i would get the hrs. So, maybe she can help me out. I don't want to get my Office Leader on my bad side but i'm not gonna sit by and just work under 20 hrs a week. Oh there is one week i get 25 while the other lady gets 35. I mean if she gave me 5 more hrs, we would both be working equal hrs which i think is fair, which is what she was talking about in the office meeting.
The tax pros earn their money on each return they do, so they want as many people that come thru the door as possible. So, during the meeting w/the fair and equal speech, our OL was talking about having a walk-in client rotation sheet for the tax pros so not just 1 person gets all the walk-ins and money. She was saying that wouldn't be fair and i want everyone to have an equal share so there's a rotation list. So, they can be fair and equal but when it comes to me and my hours, i can't be equal. I have to be at the bottom. She was saying she will try to get me more hrs maybe at another store but it would be at night...but i work nights at my store....that wouldn't work. I need day time hrs at one store then nights at my store and that would be fine. I just hate that they tricked me into this store and are not delivering. I miss my old store.
So, besides all this new work stuff, i've been dealing with medical stuff. First, in August of 2010, i had sinus surgery but afterwards i kept getting infections in my sinuses and my pollups grew back which should not have happened. So now i have to get another sinus surgery a week from today to get the pollups removed and clear out the sinuses again. I pray the surgery works this time. THen, i started having stomach issues. pain and nausea in my upper stomach. I went to a GI dr and he ordered blood work, an ultrasound, and an endoscopy...well from all those tests we only found my stomach was a lil inflammed (which i knew) and they took a biopsy which i'm still waiting for. They think its just gastroineritis but i feel its something more. I'll be fine for 2 days then i'll fell crappy again. it sucks. Will all this crap EVER END!!!!!
I've also been feeling lonely these days. I know my friends and family love me but i feel they don't have time for me anymore. My friends, who are very few, have signifigant others, and so i never get to hang out with them anymore. Or b/c i'm a single mom, they never ask me to go out anymore. IT hurts and sicks but that's being a mom. I love my friends and family very much and will always be there for my friends. Lately though, i feel they haven't been there for me and all the crap i'm going thru. I really haven't heard from any of them to ask how i'm feeling or how my tests went. We'll see if i hear from anyone about my surgery next week. i'm sure i'll get a good luck and feel better but afterwards i bet i won't hear anything. Do you know how that feels?
And then being a single mom not being able to find work is very stressful. Living with my parents is not a a piece of cake. Its putting a strain on all of us. i hate not being able to support my own child and get my own place. Sometimes i feel like just picking up haylee and moving away but how with no money. I'm just really in a down place right now.
Please pray that things just turn around and start getting better for me. 2011 just not a good year so far and its only the 17th of Jan.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Proof that i am meant to be a nurse
We were in Florida this weekend for Tim's funeral. It was a quick trip down Friday and back today, Saturday. Well, as you all know, I am in school to become a nurse. On the way home from Florida, i was tested to see if this is really what i want to become.
We had to stop at the gas station to fill up in Locust Grove. Luckily we did b/c Haylee;s diaper was poopy. It was everywhere. So we got her changed and thought it be best that we use the restroom before getting back on the road b/c the traffic was backed up for miles. When i came out of the gas station, a guy came up asking for help.
He was holding his arm and was bleeding severely. At first, we thought it was a prank b/c nothing like that ever happens. But then he sat down nad we knew he was hurt. People were all around and someone kept saying call 911. I only stood there for a second and then my nursing instincts kicked in and i ran to the back of our van and got the roll of paper towels and went to help the man.
He told us he went down to the hotel to help a friend and a guy jumped him from behind and threw him thru a window. He had a bad cut in his cheek and his arm. I grabbed the towels and pressed it on his arm holding it up. A guy named Van, grabbed his belt and wrapped it around his arm as a tourniquet. Dad came over and was trying to stop the bleeding on his cheek. The poor guy was losing ALOT of blood. We were doing all we could until emergency responders got there.
I was not grossed out or anything. It just seemed natural what i was doing. Finally, Locust Grove police got there but were no help at all. They stood around talking while we were trying to save this guy's life. I don't know the guy's name we were helping. He started having convulsions and we kept telling him...stay awake...your going to be ok. We kept him awake until the ambulance got there and I still worked with the EMS team to help the guy. They finally got him prepared to move to teh life flight and i went and washed up. I just pray the guy is ok and made it. I think he did and i am thankful me, my dad and Van were there to help this man.
My sister asked me when it was over if i really wanted to be a nurse and i said yes. It was just natural to me and it felt good to help someone. I know now, this is what i was meant to do.
We had to stop at the gas station to fill up in Locust Grove. Luckily we did b/c Haylee;s diaper was poopy. It was everywhere. So we got her changed and thought it be best that we use the restroom before getting back on the road b/c the traffic was backed up for miles. When i came out of the gas station, a guy came up asking for help.
He was holding his arm and was bleeding severely. At first, we thought it was a prank b/c nothing like that ever happens. But then he sat down nad we knew he was hurt. People were all around and someone kept saying call 911. I only stood there for a second and then my nursing instincts kicked in and i ran to the back of our van and got the roll of paper towels and went to help the man.
He told us he went down to the hotel to help a friend and a guy jumped him from behind and threw him thru a window. He had a bad cut in his cheek and his arm. I grabbed the towels and pressed it on his arm holding it up. A guy named Van, grabbed his belt and wrapped it around his arm as a tourniquet. Dad came over and was trying to stop the bleeding on his cheek. The poor guy was losing ALOT of blood. We were doing all we could until emergency responders got there.
I was not grossed out or anything. It just seemed natural what i was doing. Finally, Locust Grove police got there but were no help at all. They stood around talking while we were trying to save this guy's life. I don't know the guy's name we were helping. He started having convulsions and we kept telling him...stay awake...your going to be ok. We kept him awake until the ambulance got there and I still worked with the EMS team to help the guy. They finally got him prepared to move to teh life flight and i went and washed up. I just pray the guy is ok and made it. I think he did and i am thankful me, my dad and Van were there to help this man.
My sister asked me when it was over if i really wanted to be a nurse and i said yes. It was just natural to me and it felt good to help someone. I know now, this is what i was meant to do.
Tragedy
On March 8, 2009, I lost someone very close to me and my family. Tim Miller, who is like my brother, was killed tragically in a plane crash along with a couple from my church Brain and Krista Kearney. They were flying to the NASCAR race and their plane nose dived into a lake and desenegrated on impact. There were no survivors. .
It was the most terrible thing i've ever been thru. I still just can not believe Tim is dead. It just doesn't seem real. It's been very hard to cope with but we are dealing with it one day at a time and with the help of Jesus. I guess it doesn't seem real b/c we weren't able to see his body. Tim was not veiwable. Either was Brian and Krista. We had a funeral for Tim, Brian and Krista last weekend. It was just so sad.
This weekend my family went down to Florida where Tim was being buried for that service. It was so hard. This really made it seem more real. I will miss him terribly but i know that he is with our Lord and Savior and is very happy.
It was the most terrible thing i've ever been thru. I still just can not believe Tim is dead. It just doesn't seem real. It's been very hard to cope with but we are dealing with it one day at a time and with the help of Jesus. I guess it doesn't seem real b/c we weren't able to see his body. Tim was not veiwable. Either was Brian and Krista. We had a funeral for Tim, Brian and Krista last weekend. It was just so sad.
This weekend my family went down to Florida where Tim was being buried for that service. It was so hard. This really made it seem more real. I will miss him terribly but i know that he is with our Lord and Savior and is very happy.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Frustrated
Ok, so i am really frustrated and not quite sure what to do. First, my sister and my friend went on a trip this weekend and didn;t ask me to go. I was hurt by this alot. I'm told i'm being immature and a bunch of other crap. Well, my niece was saying she understood how i felt and was being sweet to me about the whole thing. Well, it turned out that, that was short lived. She constantly has been texting me and asking me all theses questions and i give her the short answers. I told my friend we were not friends anymore b/c she lied to me. Well, my niece keeps asking if i am friends still with my friend and all i said was no b/c she lied to me and that's something i don't stand for. She took that and told her mom, and also told her mom i was venting to her and a bunch of other crap that was totally not true and my sister texts me and says i need to stop and all this.
Hello, i didn't do anything. My niece is an instigator and likes getting people in trouble. Then, later on tonight, we had an event at church. Well, i ignored her the whole evening b/c i am upset at her for running her mouth and telling lies. I spoke to her once the whole evening and she calls her mom again and says things about me that are totally untrue. Well, then my sister text me and says can't you act like an adult and just ignore her. Um, what do you think i've been doing all night. I have 6 people who can attest to that fact. I then proceded to call my sister and tell her that i have ignored her all night but she keeps texting me and everything. Its a frickin soap opera and i'm sick of it.
She's my niece and i love her bur i'm sick of her always running her mouth and saying things that aren't true. She's 13 and i know its an awkward stage for her, but its frustrating and i don't know how to handle her anymore. Any advice is appreciated.
Hello, i didn't do anything. My niece is an instigator and likes getting people in trouble. Then, later on tonight, we had an event at church. Well, i ignored her the whole evening b/c i am upset at her for running her mouth and telling lies. I spoke to her once the whole evening and she calls her mom again and says things about me that are totally untrue. Well, then my sister text me and says can't you act like an adult and just ignore her. Um, what do you think i've been doing all night. I have 6 people who can attest to that fact. I then proceded to call my sister and tell her that i have ignored her all night but she keeps texting me and everything. Its a frickin soap opera and i'm sick of it.
She's my niece and i love her bur i'm sick of her always running her mouth and saying things that aren't true. She's 13 and i know its an awkward stage for her, but its frustrating and i don't know how to handle her anymore. Any advice is appreciated.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Haylee
Just a little note about Haylee. She is growing so fast. I miss her being a little bundle that i could just hold. But this age is fun. She is talking more and more every day. She is learning new words and is starting to put them together. I am just amazed of how smart she is. Haylee is a problem solver and figures things out so quickly. I am just so happy and blessed to have such a beautiful daughter. She is my life and i love her more then anything in the world.
My new job
So, I started my new job last week and i love it. The people i work with are great and i am enjoying myself. I'm tired and its hard balancing school with work but i'm getting it done. I am having a hard time leaving Haylee. She is having a hard time too with me leaving all the time. I hate hearing her scream and cry, yelling mommy when i leave. It just breaks my heart but i'm doing what i need to do for our future. I broke down the other day. I'm dealing with it though and this job is only temporary. I hate that it's not permanent but it's something for now.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Mt First blog
Hello Everyone. I thought this would be a good way to keep everyone up to date on me and Haylee and what's going on in our life. So i am now 33 years old and i decided last summer to go back to school to make a better life for me and my daughter. I am in school for nursing, to become a LPN. I'm in my 3rd quarter and have a gpa of 3.85. Summer qtr i had a 4.0 and was put on the president's list. I am so proud of myself for actually going back. I've also just found out that i got a job. I have been out of work since Feburary 2008. I only only got a seasonal job with H & R Block, but it's something for now. So, things are starting to look up a little bit for me. It's a nice change.
Now a little about my daughter, Haylee. She is such a handful but i love her more than life. She is 18 months old and is just a little monkey. She is climbing on everything. I know it's just a matter of time before she climbs out of her crib. She is also talking alot more. She is picking up new words all the time and yesterday, she said her first sentence. She said, "Oh hi mommy!" I was so proud. She is also in the starting stages of potty training and has pee-peed in the potty. Tonight was very funny. She now says Oh shoot! It's too cute. And she is super smart. I mean really smart. The things she knows and picks up. Even the Dr. said she was smart.
SO, there is a little about me and haylee. I will try and keep this updated so y'all know what's going on with us.
Now a little about my daughter, Haylee. She is such a handful but i love her more than life. She is 18 months old and is just a little monkey. She is climbing on everything. I know it's just a matter of time before she climbs out of her crib. She is also talking alot more. She is picking up new words all the time and yesterday, she said her first sentence. She said, "Oh hi mommy!" I was so proud. She is also in the starting stages of potty training and has pee-peed in the potty. Tonight was very funny. She now says Oh shoot! It's too cute. And she is super smart. I mean really smart. The things she knows and picks up. Even the Dr. said she was smart.
SO, there is a little about me and haylee. I will try and keep this updated so y'all know what's going on with us.
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