Well let's see...I was at work all day on friday from 10-8 at H R block... Differnt office this year. Not too happy. District Mgr said if i went there i'd get more hrs. WRONG! My Office Leader is giving all the hrs to the other CSP,that's what were called CSP (customer service professionals). Like Next week i have 19 hrs while the other lady has 31 hrs. I talked to my OL about my hours a few times but haven't really seen much oof an improvement. then i talked to her today about this and asked if she could take some of the other csp's hrs and give them to me to make it a lil more even b/w us and she said she couldn't take hrs from her to give to me b/c it wouldnt be fair to her b/c she's a top-notch csp and she deserves those hrs. She's never worked with her so how does she know that. I'm a top-notch csp too. This is my 3rd year w/block and i'm good at my job. I've always gotten high priase. I'm a hard worker and she saw that today, she told me so. But all of a sudden she deems this other lady gets all the hrs. We had a store meeting tonight and all she could talk about was how she wanted to make sure everyone was treated fair and equal. um hello, not treating me that way. This is her first year in that office too so i just don't understand. I've already been insulted by 1 of the tax pros, and then half the other people act like i dont know what i'm doing yet i've been there 3 years. SO FRUSTRATED! So, that night after work when i got home, i wrote my District Manger an email explaining the situation. I told her i did not want to step on anyone's toes but that i was a lil upset about this whole mess. I mean she is the one who told me i would get the hrs. So, maybe she can help me out. I don't want to get my Office Leader on my bad side but i'm not gonna sit by and just work under 20 hrs a week. Oh there is one week i get 25 while the other lady gets 35. I mean if she gave me 5 more hrs, we would both be working equal hrs which i think is fair, which is what she was talking about in the office meeting.
The tax pros earn their money on each return they do, so they want as many people that come thru the door as possible. So, during the meeting w/the fair and equal speech, our OL was talking about having a walk-in client rotation sheet for the tax pros so not just 1 person gets all the walk-ins and money. She was saying that wouldn't be fair and i want everyone to have an equal share so there's a rotation list. So, they can be fair and equal but when it comes to me and my hours, i can't be equal. I have to be at the bottom. She was saying she will try to get me more hrs maybe at another store but it would be at night...but i work nights at my store....that wouldn't work. I need day time hrs at one store then nights at my store and that would be fine. I just hate that they tricked me into this store and are not delivering. I miss my old store.
So, besides all this new work stuff, i've been dealing with medical stuff. First, in August of 2010, i had sinus surgery but afterwards i kept getting infections in my sinuses and my pollups grew back which should not have happened. So now i have to get another sinus surgery a week from today to get the pollups removed and clear out the sinuses again. I pray the surgery works this time. THen, i started having stomach issues. pain and nausea in my upper stomach. I went to a GI dr and he ordered blood work, an ultrasound, and an endoscopy...well from all those tests we only found my stomach was a lil inflammed (which i knew) and they took a biopsy which i'm still waiting for. They think its just gastroineritis but i feel its something more. I'll be fine for 2 days then i'll fell crappy again. it sucks. Will all this crap EVER END!!!!!
I've also been feeling lonely these days. I know my friends and family love me but i feel they don't have time for me anymore. My friends, who are very few, have signifigant others, and so i never get to hang out with them anymore. Or b/c i'm a single mom, they never ask me to go out anymore. IT hurts and sicks but that's being a mom. I love my friends and family very much and will always be there for my friends. Lately though, i feel they haven't been there for me and all the crap i'm going thru. I really haven't heard from any of them to ask how i'm feeling or how my tests went. We'll see if i hear from anyone about my surgery next week. i'm sure i'll get a good luck and feel better but afterwards i bet i won't hear anything. Do you know how that feels?
And then being a single mom not being able to find work is very stressful. Living with my parents is not a a piece of cake. Its putting a strain on all of us. i hate not being able to support my own child and get my own place. Sometimes i feel like just picking up haylee and moving away but how with no money. I'm just really in a down place right now.
Please pray that things just turn around and start getting better for me. 2011 just not a good year so far and its only the 17th of Jan.
